Phan - The First Kiss - part: 2

Dan's POV

After I'd taken a shower, put on some clothes and straightened out my hair, I walked out of the bathroom. I wanted to say goodbye to Phil before I headed out, Phil, my beautiful, best friend and flatmate. I stopped my thoughts there, cause if let my thoughts take me along I'd never stop thinking about him. I'd been in love with him for years; I realized that about a year ago. And after it hit me that I was in love with my best friend, my male best friend, I started dating again. I knew that Phil and I wouldn't be together, so I had to get on.

Phil wasn't in the living Room, so I figured that he was in his own room. I knocked his door, and when he didn't respond I opened it slowly and gave him a smile, which turned into a slightly chocked face. Phil was crying "What's wrong?" I said in a slightly painful voice, Phil couldn't cry, he mustn't cry! Quickly He wiped away the tears and sent me a smile, a smile that didn't reach his beautiful blue eyes, ice blue. "I'm just a little sleepy" he said and smiled again, he kept on smiling like that, fake smiles that didn't reach his eyes. "Just yawned" he said, to confirm what he'd just told me, I knew he was lying to me, but why? I gave him a sceptical look and send him a smile "okay, I'm heading out now, see you later" I said to him, when he sent me another of those awful fake smiles "Sure, have fun" I nodded to him and closed the door behind me.

I couldn't stop thinking about the sadness in his eyes; I didn't know why he cried. It hurt me to see him like that. I picked up my jacket and keys and went over to the door, thinking about Phil again "I'm probably not home before late, so you don't have to make dinner enough for the two of us." I closed the door behind me and rubbed my temples, I felt terrible about leaving him alone when he was sad, but I had to.

I spend my day together with Katelyn, we walked around in London, shopping a bit, and relaxing at starbucks and in the evening we ate at a Mexican restaurant. Through all day I just kept on thinking about Phil, and every time Katelyn tried to tell me something I didn't listen so she had to tell it again. After we were done eating, Katelyn looked at me with a sad smile "There's someone else isn't there?"  I simply looked at her "I can feel it, you had that far away look all day, and it's not the first time." I gave her a little smile "I'm sorry." She smiled at me "you shouldn't be, I'm just not the right person for you, but will you promise me one thing?" I looked confused at her "sure." She gave me a giant smile "Promise me that you tell the person how you feel, turn all of those thoughts of yours into words." I gave her a sad smile, "I'll try."

Time was around 10PM when I arrived home, I tossed my jacket and keys at the dining table and looked around for Phil, he wasn't in the living room. "Phil" I called and looked around, but no one responded, a lightly panic hit me, he'd been crying earlier and he used to be awake at this time. I ran towards his bedroom and ripped the door open, just to find Phil lying in his bed curled into a ball where he slept softly. I blushed slightly when I remembered my talk with Katelyn, I looked at Phil, he was so adorable when he was sleeping. I walked over to the bed and sat down beside him, he looked so peacefully. I took me some time to admire his pale skin and raven black hair, he was still completely dressed and probably still wore his lenses. "Phil" I said softly and laid my hand on his shoulder, "you have to change your clothes and take out your lenses." Phil opened his eyes slowly and looked tired at me, his blue eyes where puffy and red, and I knew that he'd been crying more since earlier today. "Come on" I said and smiled at him, he nodded tired "what time is it?" I smiled "Around 10."